Happy 3 Friends

My lil doggies have a new friend now. Chi-chi bought me a magnetic doggie from Nici (also)... *yay* I'm yet to name that fella ;)



That's my sweetheart, Abigail, & my doggies. She's one darling that I'll really, really miss when I leave Kuantan next year. I'm currently staying at her house since I came back to Kuantan with her parents on Sunday. My finals begin next week, so I've one week 'free'... dunwan to go back to uni yet, so I decided to stay at 'home'... heh. I'll go back to uni maybe on the coming Sunday night... let me 'hibernate' and study at home first. I love my family(s) here.

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I just don't get it! Indeed His ways are higher than our ways. Can friendship such as this be patched up? I was SO reluctant to pick up the call, but I did anyways. Everything sounded as if nothing bad happened. Bummer. I'm getting confused at the way things are going. Bah.

Perhaps it IS true that 'Friends are friends forever, if the Lord's the Lord of them'. *sigh* Confused... God is TOO mysterious in His ways...

Happy Feet

Looking forward to catch this new animation- Happy Feet. It's scheduled to come out in the cinemas here on 16th November 2006... me wanna watch!!

New toy

Really excited! Just got myself a digital camera!!!! Yay yay! The most expensive thing that I've ever spent on... went bonkers on Saturday & decided that I've to get a camera before I head back to Kuantan on Sunday..it's not the latest model, but it's something good enough for me.

Spent RM 1199.00... thought the deal wasn't too bad since the specs are good & the package was quite interesting to me as well.















Here's introducing my new toy, the Panasonic Lumix DMC-FX3, black! An ultra compact digital camera, 6.0 MP, 2.5" LCD, Leica DC Vario Elmarit lens, 3X optical zoom, ISO 1600, Anti-shake...etc. The package includes a 1GB SD card, a Lumix case, a camera travel bag, an LCD protector, & a mini tripod. *pleased* It has pretty much all the functions I look for in a digital camera. Yay! Now, I can take snap shots of Abigail & her crazy songs, 7 get ready to shoot photos of my upcoming trip to Sarawak for the Royal Debate Chaompionship (25-30 November 2006)!!

It is finished

Have you ever wondered how painful it was for the Lord to say that sentence? And after that ‘simple’ sentence, there was victory??

I found it tough to understand all along, but now, I got the point. I now know how painful it was to leave everything that I love behind; to look past the events of the past; to just focus on the future, which at present seems terribly bleak.

Sometimes I really wonder, why would the Lord want to put me through such painful incidences? Do I really need ‘em all to ‘survive’? Would it actually build me up & not break me further? Or do I need the breaking up to be ‘reformed’?

I told myself, “I just can’t stand up again… I can’t…not this time…” The more I tell myself that, the more I want to stand up & tell the Lord that “yes, I can do it!” Who can I turn to? What else could I do to make things right? I just can’t do anything. I can’t change the past, I can’t alter the future- basically I can’t do anything! Bummer.

On one hand, I feel horrible. I feel totally defeated & I just want to not look back at the great times I had. On the other hand, I’m filled with anger. “Why do you need to do this to me now?? Why not some other time??”

“Lord, why me? Why are You doing this to me?? I just can’t understand… I’m confused. Why do You need to put me through such an event & put me to the test to the maximum?? Do I need such an event to make me a stronger person?? Do I need to be tested in such a way for You to know that no matter what happens I will still follow You??! Ergh… I’m mad at You! As Jacob wrestled with You, so will I! I won’t let You go without giving me Your blessings! Do I have the right to be mad at You?? I don’t know. *sigh* I’m sad ‘til I’m mad… and soon enough, if I don’t shout it out, I will really go insane.

Oh. As for now, after all the lamentation, I will have to hold my head up high once again, focus on the race that I am called to run in, and just continue running toward victory. ‘The Lord NEVER disappoints me’- this was what I wrote in my journal, & so shall it be forever & ever. Amen.

Side effects....

I hate the side effects of having hypothyroidism. I'm contemplating of stopping Carbimazole totally, & await a rebounce to hyperthyroidism again! I find my weight going up, up, up..., causing me to find it difficult to fit into my clothes comfortably :( Really depressing... my face seems 'bloated' and things just don't look right. Ergh... the effects of medical treatments; it either gets you better, or makes things worst. Bah. Time to loose those kilos!!!

6 pills- 4 pills- 1 pill

Ah... it has been half a month since I last posted anything onto the blogsite. Can't get into the site from my room lar. Bah. Latest news:

My hyperthyroidism is gone!! Yay!! HyPOthyroidism surfaced!! Bummer! I can't believe my ears when I heard the news. Argh. My Free T4 level took a plunge... from 50+ pmol/L to 2.10pmol/L!!! Madness man... the optimal is actually 20+ pmol/L... argh-eth. Carbimazole does wonders... it either heals you or kills you... gah. I didn't realise the symptoms are actually for hypothyroidism... dry, cracking skin (I thought it's the soap), slowly getting hoarse voice, hair loss... weight gain... swelling neck... what else? You name it, I have it la. *sigh* I 'love' Carbimazole...