Focus

This phrase kept ringing in me, “Until they come in true & humble worship…” What have I been doing all these while? I have been serving in church for the past 5 years or so, but has my acts of service been one of true worship to the LORD? Have I actually trusted the Lord fully?

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, and whose hope is in the LORD. For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters, which spreads out its roots by the river, and will not fear when heat comes; but its leaves will be green, and will not be anxious in the year of drought, nor will cease from yielding fruit.” Jeremiah 17:7-8

As I have mentioned earlier in ‘Out of Place…again???’, I have not been serving in any ministry in any of both churches I worship for the past 9 months. I was talking to Mabel yesterday (it was a fabulous chat…although we were cut off twice due to my silly handphone running out of battery). There was one part of the conversation where we were sharing about how God would lead us to the desert & at the end of the course, only will we be empowered for greater things in life. All these will be a humbling experience. I haven’t stopped thinking about all that we’ve shared after the 2nd cut-off. Perhaps the stop in serving has its purpose after all.

Indeed, I feel terribly weird & dry; my fingers get itchy, wanting to play the guitar or the bass for service. My focus? Is this the desert the Lord is leading me to? My heart needs a check-up…urgently!

Another phrase, which NEVER left me, even after a year now, is, “Let Go, Let God”. Perhaps I have never learnt my lesson yet. Gathering all the things that have been lingering in my mind & in someway, haunting me day & night, I could sum it all up & conclude that I have not yet trusted God enough to allow Him to use me fully & let my fruits grow in abundance. What has my focus been all these while? *sigh* It is time to sit back, recheck on my walk with the Lord, & walk back to the direction, which He has called me to.