Perhaps THIS is life after all

It's really peculiar how the same old things which I went through the previous semester is coming back to attack me again. The run away plans have resurrected.

I suppose it was becuase of the pressure that I am going through. The confusions in life never did help in any way at all. Tests and projects are the usual things that suck the joy out of me. I hate to admit it that I am not liking any of it at all. Not even the friends I have here. I know I am suppose to be thankful for what I am blessed with, but the more I get to know the people here, the more I see the darker sides of them.

It is not easy to accept others, I noticed. I find that many a times, even my room mates turn their backs at me. Being in the same room, barely 3 metres from each other's tables, 'gossips' and secrets are shared, without having me in the picture. Even if it has to do with me, they are not sharing it out. How can I live on with all these suffocation? *sigh* Perhaps THIS is the reality of life after all.

More to write, but time is a factor. Got to go for class now. *double sigh*