Complexes

I was talking to Chris Choong and Chit Chong last weekend when we went shopping at 1U for pants (Chris wanted to get some pants b4 he left for the USA last Saturday). We came across the issue of relating ourselves to the characters in the Bible. I was sharing with Chris how I felt like Abraham, then Jonah last year.

He told me he felt like Moses lately. MYF took a different twist (and a good start) after he handed the position of President to Chris Sam. All Chris Choong could do is to see the changes happening from afar...he can't be a part of it and he can't experience the difference. Feels like a Moses complex.

We continued on this topic until we discovered how 'chronologically ordered' I felt...from Abraham to Jonah. Life has taken quite a change since the Abraham Jonah phase. There are more challenges ahead after a season of feeling dry and lost early this year....the time when I felt I don't know which church I actuallly belong to...

Suddenly, it SO seemed to connect to Jesus...He went through the desert, fasted and all for 40 days 40 nights before His ministry actually kicked off! Scary!! The Jesus complex...argh...when Chris & I discovered this, I reckon we felt a sudden cold shiver sent down our spines. The Jesus complex. What's next? Chris said the next thing in Jesus' life was the cruxifiction. Argh...!!!

We were having quite a nice time talking about such complexes...teehee...I really wonder which character I can connect myself to. Paul, Timothy, Barnabas, or John???!! Gahaha...shan't think too far for now ;D

Random shots

Despite the warm air lingering in the room, the atmosphere felt was much colder than anyone would think it to be. The silence is numbing, causing the ever attentive ears to ‘move’ at every slightest sound heard. No amount of music played could overpower the numbing silence.

The room is filled with occupants; not as if it is empty at all. Yet, looking around the room, all one could perceive is that everyone else is busy with their own business. It SO doesn’t feel any comfortable to sit in the midst of room mates, who cannot be bothered about you in their intense concentration.

Conversations rarely strike-up when all four room mates are around. Either each of them have their heads buried deep into those thick text books, or more often than the other, half the room mates are out almost all the time. Hardly will there be time spent just to catch up and check on each other. No one is to blame, really. Perhaps none believe that personal relationships / friendships are as important, except yours truly.

*sigh*

It is strange how people can live in this sort of ‘vacuumed’ life. Definitely this isn’t completely true all the time. It is just that such a situation take place ever too often in this room that I am beginning to feel uncomfortable. It is not that I loathe silence; I love every single bit of it, but not when I am with a group of people whom I have to live with for a whole year. Can you imagine how bare life in the room would be?

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People these days are getting very independent. One may be in illusion that yes, people are getting independent, but the truth is that people these days are getting self-centered. There are group works to be completed (as a group, of course); yet certain students would rather complete it themselves than to trust their group members’ ability. Well, I do agree that at times we would get sleeping members. However, there isn’t any excuse to not delegate the workload to every member of the group. We may need to edit portions of the work at the end, but the littlest of effort placed into the work by the others would lighten our burdens somewhat.

Self-centeredness reflects a lot on the individual’s attitude. It is usually tough to make a statement make sense to them as they will think that they are right most of the time. I’ve tried many times talking to people who are self-centered. Most of the time, I fail to get the message through to them. *sigh* Why can’t people just learn to listen?

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Good golly. The ability to listen reflects much on me. Have I been listening; to God; to others? Self-check…hmm…

Of late, I know I’ve been listening to some friends when they turned to me for a listening ear. Compared to the time when I was at JS, I am finding it more difficult to be still and listen. It may be the busyness that I am in, but that doesn’t give me a good excuse. Ah, time to learn to listen again and focus on what is important. It may be that during the time of busyness we find the presence of God even more real… who knows…?

Saje-saje post

It is interesting how friendships can be fostered within a one day camp. And it is strange how these ppl can ask pretty direct questions after knowing each other for just one day plus! Haha...it tickled me when a friend sms-ed me yesterday and asked me the most unexpected, yet slighly predictable question. I shall not disclose the question...

Well, well, looking back at those few days, I really thank God that I got to know more ppl out of Kuantan...most of them are nice :) Sigh...despite the busy schedules I have, I am nonetheless excited with the little-little details that comes with the LIFE package. Life can be a routine, yet it will have its tiny joy and fun...you've just got to see it in different lights *smiles with satisfaction*

Gtg..class is starting...

Youth Media Camp

The past weekend has been a totally different weekend. Unlike my usual weekends where I would go out to Abi's house on Friday noon, I settled for a Youth Camp organised by the Catholic church in Kuantan (St. Thomas).

Miss Wong would rarely go for any camps out of those organised by TRAC. However, this time around, she gave it a shot, since Kelv invited and made it sound interesting.
She had no idea what she was getting herself into, but the experience she gathered was really refreshing!

Well, even her room mate, Agee, who isn't a Christian went for this camp (it's opened to everyone who's interested to come). The camp was only a 2 days 1 night camp, held at St. Theresa Cathedral behind the Zaman restaurant where I have posted in this blog before that that restaurant is believed to have placed some jampi into their nasi lemak...haha.

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Youths, mostly Roman Catholics, from the East Coast, as far as Kuala Terengganu and Mentakab, attended this camp, some for the 1st time as well. We left for the camp on Friday night and had dinner there. At first, we just stuck to each other from our own unis, but around late night, the ice melted, and everyone was everywhere, getting to know each other.

The group of ppl whom I hung out with for almost the entire night (I slept at 3.30am and woke up at 7.00am!!), where a bunch of guys from INSTP (Petronas Institute of Technicians). They were grouped up together and just didn't move, so I buat kacau-ed as usual. At first, it was difficult for me to go up to a group of strangers and start a random conversation. However, at the end of the 'morning' I had great fun getting to know each of them and getting a glimpse of what's life like in KT.

My team, was pretty nice. Agee and I ended up in the same team. Most of us were from KUKTEM, 1 from UiTM Kuantan, while another from KUSTEM. Most of the camp participants are guys, thus most of the new friends I made are guys. The only girl not from our uni whom I got to know is Jennifer, currenly studying Food Science in KUSTEM.

Right, the camp was about media and its influences to the youths of this day. Mainly they touched about how media speaks to ppl, what are the hidden messages, and how to use media as an effective way of communications. The team in charge of this talk thingy was CahayaSuara, a team of ppl from an organization, under the Catholics.

I kinda enjoyed the sessions although during most of the sessions I was trying real hard to stay awake. The chat on Friday night took up way too much of my energy. Oh, besides, I have to sleep on the floor as there wasn't enough mattress to go around. The worst thing was that there wasn't any water (not much at least) in that compound! No water to wash, bath, and brush our teeth! We had to use whatever we have sparingly...the water had to cater to almost 70 youths.

I had a good time there...experiencing how a Catholic mass is like and so forth. The friends I made were nice and well, indeed my mission for that camp is accomplished, ' To widen my circle of friends and experience something which I would not experience during the usual days' !

Annual Dinner

Nyah...I have to pay to go for the faculty's annual dinner, end of this month. I have no idea what that dinner will be like. Usually, it isn't very nice as the variety of food will be limited and the company...erm...mostly malays who aren't very pleasant.

The dinner will be held at Vistana Hotel, costing RM35/person. Buffet style, I reckon. Like what can you get with RM35 at a hotel?? Uncle Francis told me that Swiss Garden is offering a good spread of eat-all-you-can for only RM38++. I would rather pay a little more and get good food, with civilized company! I'm sure the guys would rush to the food as soon as they are allowed to. Bah.

The theme for that night sounds SO boring....Malam Korporat (Corporate Night). Like what do they expect us to wear?? Semuanya tutup aurat?? Clothes that we usally wear to work? Like those that we wear to class???? Eee-ye....so boring...

Ah well...loads to complain about..haha...I am going like super bonkers these days. I have a project to settle by Friday and I can only do the interview with Calvin (who works in the RHB bank) to get the details I would need to build my Home Loan System on Wednesday!

Truly hope that I will survive this week...with the out-flow of cash like water...the dinner, the faculty's jacket (compulsory...RM90)...gah.

Minor dilemma

Last night, I had a great surprise while I was at the cafe having a group meeting for the SDP project. I was totally busy trying to get my group working on the project as usual.

Half-way through the discussion/ meeting, I was called by this girl, who is the current Exco for the MPP (Students' Representative Council) for something I didn't expect at all. She asked if I would be interested to run for the elections this year. Totally can't believe my ears! Can't they get someone else? Don't I have enough work to do? Don't I have enough trouble to deal with??? *sigh*

She gave me less than 24 hours to think about it. I couldn't sleep. Plus, I had to finish up my project as well...huhu...Sad to say, emotions and confusions took over my mind. I couldn't think straight...bah. There were loads of pros and cons to weigh. What if I'm really elected?

I insisted that the Exco member tell me the 'consequences' to bear. She told me that my holidays will be taken up...not all, but most. Bah. There will be some weekends that I have to stay back for MPP work and well, the mid term hols will be used for this council. *sigh* The greatest question is " Am I willing to sacrifice it all for the sake of others i.e. the students of my faculty?"

Ppl say I think too much...way too far when things are not certain yet. I beg to differ. I want to think through throughly before I take up anything. I asked Fern, Mabel, & Kin Hup for their views on this since Fern and Mabes have been through it before. They should know better when it comes to what to expect etc. A big thank you to both Fern and Kin Hup for the encouragement and advices! I'm still thinking through and asking God...heh.

Please keep me in prayer. My room mate, who is one who dislikes anything that involves a lot of hassle, told me not to take it up as I am mentally and emotionally unprepared for it. She thinks I won't be able to juggle my studies and my duties...hmm...makes sense...but it's as if I'm doubting God, who is my Strength. Bah.

Enough said. Whatever decisions I am to make, I hope to make the best and give all glory to God, who deserves it all. :)

Finally!

Ahah! Finally I could get into this site to post some updates! Lately, the connetion hasn't been very friendly to me...didn't really allow me to get into this blogger site. Cis cis. I could only get in through the 'Blog This' and not the conventional way...argh. This is what u get for the amount of school fees that u pay...blame everything on the uni...blame, blame, blame!

I'm now on a short 'break'...just one hour and forty five minutes kinda break...yeah, I call this a break. Bah. I woke up at 6.40a.m. today and got to class on time, just to find out after waiting for half an hour that there ain't class for today! The lecturer didn't inform us at all! Bummer! All I did at the lab was to check out some stuff online and that's it! That also, I can't even get into my email sites...I have no idea what's the uni doin to improve their services.

Nothing special has been happening lately. It's either that or I have been way too busy to notice it. What can I say about this semester? It's nothing but documentations, group projects and boring theories! The lecturers will give us quizzes out of the blue and will suddenly cancel class, replacing it at some other time where everyone has plans to get out of the uni already...argh...

I'll be having a meeitng to compile my project tonight, a formal review tomorrow...like some interview thingy and I reckon more work for the weekend...oh, a maths quiz on Friday too! Eekkk.....

Busy, busy, busy...