I have enough!

Well, well, it has been a couple fo days since I last wrote anything for this blogsite. I have been very, very busy of late. Just on Thursday, I didn't manage to sleep at night due to the rush to finish up my English report, which was a group work.

I had to compile the things, edit them and doall the needed to ensure that the report is good. Furthermore, I had to complete my Software Development Plan, which is about the system that my group is to make. *sigh* That took me quite some time to finish up too. Was rushing like crazy. I ended up sleeping around 3.30am and had to wake up by 7.45am...practically spent the whole day from 8am-3.30am the next day i front of the comp. My eyes wanted to explode edi....

Lack of sleep causes me to go crazy and I felt really disorganised the next day. One thing I know for sure, I am never lack of assignments!

I am still having loads of assignments and projects to be handed in next week. Finals will be up in March. I don't think I will blog so much for the time being....oh, my schedule for the short semester is out too. Bummer. I will have about 3 weeks of hols after my finals, then I come back to uni for 6 weeks, then go off for about a month, then continue with year 2 in July. *sigh*

I got to go now. I have SO much to say, but time doesn't permit me to do so. Got to rush for another group discussion....

Interview

I had a workshop this morning, which was in an interview style. Oh, I was really excited, yet worried about this workshop. Islamic Civilization- yup, this is my 2nd favourite subject in this course. Would anyone believe it??!! I used to hate the fact that I had to take up this subject this semester. However, this subject seems to be one of my favourite after all. The study on religion--I like.

I'm taking this subject as a platform for me to share my faith with the others. Evangelism kinda thingy. Ooo...exciting! I guess I just talked too much today for the interview though. *sigh* I felt kinda outa place in the midst of 4 other friends of mine who are Buddhist. Each one of us are supposed to talk about our faith, its teaching/ the God. I really dunno if what I said was right and if it makes sense. Ah well, what's done is done. I just hope that I will be able to do well for this subject...there'll be a quiz tomorrow and I am pretty bored with looking through the notes edi...eekk..

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ICT

Assembling the PC (hardware), make partitions for the PC, reformat it, install the OS, Norton anti-virus, sound cards...etc, get the internet working and do all the necessary to make the PC work again- bah! This were the things I had to do in this afternoon's ICT test & I really didn't know what happened!

Truthfully, I don't really know how to do these things. Only God knows how I managed to grope my way through the dark man. *sigh* All of the mentioned had to run in 1 1/2 hours time. Good grief. Give the task to an expert and it could be done in less than 40 minutes...hand the task to miss Ruth Wong, and she will take more than the 1 1/2 hours to do it all. Sheesh...

So far, I only saw one tick on the 'NYC' (not yet competent) box, which is where the PC was to be tested out if it works after we assemble the hardware. I didn't have enought of time; took up too much time doing the software part. *sigh* I hope I can do better for the theory...if not...that's it lar.......

Where To Begin?

There is just too much to be done. Where do I begin? I am just SO blur especially when it comes to doing the SE project. I feel that I failed to be the leader of the group as I myself don't even know how to get about with the project. What a failure I am. *sigh*

I hope all things will turn out alright somehow. I dunnolar. I feel so messed up once again. Sheesh. The worst news I heard today ws the the short semester will only begin in April and end in June! I hate it! Ergh...this would mean that I may not be home for bothmy parents' birthday, and maybe my own birthday too!! Argh....*tries to calm down*

Dear Lord, please give me the patience to endure it all and the wisdom in handling all things that come my way. I pray that indeed I will persevere and stay close to you despite the difficulties I am going through. Amen.

A Sweet Dream

Getting out of the uni for the weekend was a breather. I hate to admit it, but I still wish that the thorn would be removed form my flesh. However, the Lord has already planted in my heart that I should, & will stay on for the entire 3 years in this course irregardless of whether I like it or not. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

Being in Segamat for the weekend was a really sweet dream. I am back in reality now. Bah. I was in a real mess when the workload started piling up last minute & even had the thought of not going to Segamat for the JS's commissioning service. I am glad that I took the step of faith and just went on with the plan of going. Eeekk...

The LORD spoke to me once again on the same thing I heard from Him last year while I was at JS. " Be still & know that I am GOD. Commit your ways to the LORD. Trust also in Him and He will bring it to pass". I got this very strong message while I was at the evangelism night on Saturday. The power supply went off just as the Juwita Suwito & Altered Frequency concert was about to begin. Darn it.

Everyone was praying like crazy the couple of hours before the concert and the electricity had to go off at that point of time. TIme to get to our knees! We just kept on praying throughout the entire concert. I told the Lord that the concert belongs to Him.

Just as Moses told the Lord that the people whom He brought out of Egypt belongs to Him and Moses will not move unless the Lord provides, so it was the same for me at that point of time. I held the Lord accountable for the event,which belong to Him.

Somehow, while I was doing that to the Lord, He planted the song, 'Still', in my heart, and told me that He is in control. I haven't prayed so much at one go before for a long, long time. The electricity came back 10 minutes after the intense prayer I had. Awesome. I practically broke out in tears. *sniff* Dunno why really. Silly me. Perhaps it is the JOY of knowing how real the Lord is and how He works in situations like this. The event taught me a lot on prayer. *sigh*

I slept a total of 8 hours during those 2 nights at Segamat. Am really tired now, but I just have so much more to do that I have to keep moving. I thank God that I made it to Segamat for this weekend. I manage to learn a lot on prayer, have long chats with miss Tan and Clare, had a really LONG chat with Andrew and got a great dose of hugs, enough to last me till the next time I meet up with my awesome bunch of friends. Not to forget is that I got a younger brother now too...keeheehee...
farnee. The LORD is indeed great and worthy of all praise.

Hallelujah LORD...amen.

My Plate is Overflowing!!

I have too much on my plate! Argh. I don't know if I will be able to finish up everything on it! Just next week itself, I have 4-5 assignments due, 2 quizzes (Database System & my worst subject, Software Engineering), probably one ICT test and an interview!!! *burp* continues to chew the things on the plate in agony*

I don't know if I should really make it for the JS3's commission service now. *sigh* But then again, I promise miss Tan that I will make it there to see her grad from Jeremiah School! She told me that her parents are not going to make it for the service as it is going to be a long drive from KL to Segamat, Johor. But as for me, it is just about a 2 hours bus ride to that town. I promised her to be there and be the rep for PJ Trin too. *sigh* Andrew and Kenny were looking forward to meeting me there too...how lar now...? *stops chewing to think...can't multi-task* I haven't bought my ticket yet though. I am just gonna go to the station tomorrow afternoon and get the next bus to Segamat. Pray I will make it there safely.

I will just have to finish whatever I could by tonight or tomorrow morning before I leave in the afternoon to Segamat. As for the revision that I have to do, the 2 hour bus ride will have to be an opportunity to grab. Whatever free time available shall be used up for mugging...bah. The whole of next week will be a tough one to live through.....

I really hope that I will make it through for next week. With the many assignments/ reports to complete, I reckon I will look like a panda soon....meh. *goat continues to chew grass in agony*

Dean's List & Denggi Outbreak

This is just gonna be once, I reckon, that I get into the dean's list in this course I am in. First sem was kinda like a breeze if compared to this sem. The award presentation ceremony will be held later at 8pm! Woohoo! Syok! All 5 of us Chinese friends from my class got into the list.

This may be the 1st and the last time I get to go on stage for this award...my friends were saying that all of us should wear nice-nice. Heehee. Do or die, I will NOT wear a baju kurung for this ceremony, which 3 of them will do so for tonight. I shall wear my chinese collared top! Kakaka....a terrible racist I am. Meh....

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Gosh....save me! I think I am suffocating here....the crazy people are fogging the hostel area and they are up here on our floor! Good grief. With the recent outbreak of denggi fever, the uni has to do something, lest more of their students will land on the hospital!...Oh...perhaps then the name of this uni will be more well known! Eeekkkk....

Peace I give to you

I'm horrible when it comes to programming, and frankly speaking, I don't enjoy it. Really. I crapped the entire hands-on test for Java programming yesterday night. Bah. Well, I kinda know how to do it, except for the fact of not knowing how to put a certain part of my answer to the question from logic into algorithm. Sheesh...like how logical IS programming?

I guess I nearly died of high BP yesterday night too. Trying to finish up the last bit of the program and saving it into the pen-drive or a CD in just 20 seconds was a heart-stopper!! Especially when I'm freaked out with everything happening at that time. To add to that 'ching-chang-ness' (in mandarin...like how to write the pin yin..?), my lecturer did a countdown of the time!!! ARgh! Thankfully I have a kinda strong heart. Lest, that will be the end of me, and the funeral will be held today...haha. It would also mean that I die on the 7th day of CNY, which so happens to be 'yan yet' (everyone's birthday). Ironic.

Well, although I was very worried 'bout the marks I would receive and all, I felt this certain peace within, which I am glad 'bout. Most of my friends here were terribly worried...gah. (They usually score pretty well anyways). I haven't felt that certain kind of peace for some time. It is that same kind of peace I had during the time the STPM results were released while I was at JS last year! Ah...it was good. I love it.

Refereshed

One week was too short for a break, but ah, it was good enough, I suppose. Much has happened...teehee. I had a lot of fun catching up with some friends and making Valentine's Day cards for 2 special people in my life. Ah, it was good. I loved those cards so much that I actually didnt want to part with 'em. Kakaka...

The 1st day of CNY was pretty quiet although most of the relatives were back. Somehow the CNY atmosphere wasn't there...Oh, I had a wonderful chat with Jus on the 2nd day of CNY! I was really hoping to have a chat with him when I saw him at Aunt Mary's house for dinner, but he was busy at that time when I wanted to talk to him. Chatting with him online on the issues concerning the church and PWMT wasn't enough to satisfy. Face to face should be better, and it was! Christianity and spirituality vs Relevency and Entertainment/ Music as a way to attract...yada yada yada. Boy,I haven't had such a fruitful chat with him for a long time, after our PW band broke off...*sob sob* That was my best worship band...I could SO work with 'em. Miss those times lots.Well, well, the rest of my CNY was spent with my family and friends. Had great fun altogether :)

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Pastorpher got himself a blog! *gasp* My dear Pastorpher has started blogging...I haven't read the entire blog yet, but will do so when the connection is better. No wonder he called me up to ask me how to put up a tag-board. *tsk tsk tsk*

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I had a pleasant surprise today. Naughty Kelv sent me a sms stating that he saw a mail for me in the HEP. Right. I went to get the mail after class this morning & guess who the mail was from? The mail was in a large envelope... & there ain't any stamp on the envelope...hmm...goodness gracious. I didn't know that he was so cheeky. In it were 3 sheets of encouraging print-outs for sticking to the wall kinda thingy, and a short letter. Bah. What a surprise. Gah....but I liked it nonetheless...hahaha....

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Love is: Patient, kind, not envious, does not parade itself, not puffed up, not rude, not self-seeking, not provoked, thinks no evil, rejoices in the truth...bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things; Love NEVER fails.

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Sacrificial love. And what does that mean to me? Have I been practicing that?
"Greater love has no other than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends." John 15:13 The verse hits hard. *boiiiinnnggg* This was what I was taught to do...and I am reminded time after time about it. Where is the action? Have I been practicing it??

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Had a wonderful chat with dear darling Mabel! Woohoo! I love you, Mabel...kekeke...

Really hui jia le!

I am SO excited! Will be going home tomorrow! Yay yay! For the 1st time, I reckon, I am excited to go home.

*sigh* I miss home just a little too much. Funny how much I miss home when I have just been there a couple of weeks ago....erm...like a month ago!! My, didn't notice that. I have been on the road too much, I reckon...went to to STM for JS3 during my mid sem breakt , then went home, PJ, for a couple of days, went to JB during the Raya weekend and had a blast of a time there with Fern and Mabel, came back to Kuantan, and this week, I'm going home, PJ again! Wow...time passes SO fast! Before I could realise, my semester is over and I will be moving on to Year 2 in SE!!! And the best part is: I still don't know what I have learnt! Bah.

Ah...I don't care 'bout it too much now. I am too excited 'bout getting out of this place for an entire week!!! Although it means that there will be no internet connection, I am willing to give it all up for the sake of getting out of this uni for a while...haha. Ok ok...feel the excitement....ooooo...gtg now...ONE WEEK OFF & OUT OF THIS UNI!!! *dances around....jumps up and down*

TITAS hits...again

Had Islamic Civilization class this morning. One thing mentioned about Islam which I personally found interesting and makes Christianity so different is that Islam says, 'When man attains/ draws near to knowledge/ wisdom, he will draw close to Allah'.

Hmmm...if I am not wrong, we think otherwise: ' The closer one is to God, the closer he is to Wisdom'. Now is this correct or wrong? Anyone has any comments?

'Islam is open (terbuka) from the aspects of attaining knowledge and using it also' (Literally translated from BM); meaning they can obtain knowledge from any sources and use it anyhow they want to as long as it is not for evil. Something here tells me that I am not buying this. Funny. Still wondering what made me think so.

One thing that I heard from the lecturer and I understand it as: 'Muslims get to 'heaven' by good works. If they do good, they will be blessed and the more they do, the higher chances it is for them to get into heaven. If they do evil, they will be severely punished.' *scrathces head*

What makes the people believe in this religion then? Don't they feel that they are in some form of bondage when there is actually a Way to get into heaven, which is through faith in Christ? Have they heard of Christ? What is holding the people back? Why am I put here--in this uni??

Frustrations

I haven't been able to get into this page for the entire weekend! Really, really annoyed me. Bah. I gave up trying after so many hours and decided to post things up in the Zorpia site instead. Somehow, I find it very difficult to get into the blogger site, whether it is to check the blog, or to post things up.

Much has happened the past weekend. Many things aroused my wrath and got me ever too frustrated to think properly before taking any actions. *sigh* 'In your anger, do not sin'.

I got too up set on Saturday, that I finally broke down...again. Why lar...? I had to attend a meeting for the Minggu Bahasa, Komunikasi dan Perpaduan, where I was elected to be the AJK Cenderahati. I hate being in that position, and not knowing what I have to do. I mean, nobody told me what I have to do, and even when I asked the Chairperson of the meeting, she couldn't tell me what my responsibility is. *sigh* Such management. I find things just too messy and disorganised. Annoys me.

They didn't give me the cash to buy the things, didn't hand me the names to type for the certificates of appreciation...etc. Who would not be blur and irritated?

Anyway, I couldn't take the pressure built within me ( it included the pressure from the course that I am in...the tests, exams, quizes, assignments and the confusion of whether I am suppose to be in this course or not), thus as soon as I got out of the meeting, I went back to the hostel, sat outside the blocks, called my sister and let the tear-factory overtake me.

That was the 1st time I called my sister and related to her my situation. Boy, it was good. My sister has really grown A LOT! I haven't turned to her before this as most of the time I turned to my friends. *sigh* I love her. At that point of time, it feels as if I am the younger sister, while she is the older one. That phone call meant so much to me. I realised how much I missed talking heart-to-heart with a family member, which I rarely do when it comes to relating my troubles.

Frankly speaking, the weekend zoomed past me. I had quite a pleasant Sunday, but I shall not repeat myself...(I wrote down my thoughts in Zorpia instead). Confusions & frustrations--I need to refocus once again, and look to the Lord for His strength and wisdom. Gah.